We've been in the same place for just over three years. Ryan's finishing his Master's and has plans to be done in March. I am in a position in my job that is uncertain. The boys are growing well, and much to fast. I'm getting behind, or rather, haven't learned to say "No". I like too many things. I don't know how to stop! I'm afraid that when I slow down I'll crash...there are no brakes...there's just a pendulum of tasks and it feels like there's no happy medium. I'm wanting to turn back time, just a little while, and be a better mom. I know that's not realistic, but I feel a bit defeated. My children deserve more of my time. My husband deserves more of my time. My calling deserves more of my time.
One thing is for sure...when that storm hits, I want to be ready. It's a good thing I'm not in charge, because I might have declared an emergency by now!
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Well you can do it! I think we all feel that way at times in our lives. It's so hard to not wish you could redo this and this and this but as you look to the future and live in the moments of this life, you will be so happy and forget those things you wish you would have done...now here's to me trying to do the same thing :)
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And Thanks, Keith. I ♥ you, too, bro! Really, though, I think that's my new motto.
Sometimes change is hard, but it can be so refreshing too! Good luck.
Just thinking you need to change is the hardest part...when I became a wife, I saw weaknesses in myself that I didn't know existed before I got married...it was hard to see that I needed to change! Becoming a mom, i've discovered even more weaknesses. I think that is the exact point of this life...we will always be undergoing new and different circumstances...right when we think we are comfortable, life will change and we have to change right along with it! I admire you. Good luck!
You just about made me cry! Don't be too hard on yourself!!!
Life has a funny way of slowly building and building until it's too much! I admire you and all you take on, but make sure you take time for yourself too!
It's so easy to do that--to feel stretched too thin in too many directions. I guess the best way is to what Dallin H. Oaks said once. It was something like, "Are there so many fascinating things to do in the world that we get caught up in so many GOOD things that we don't make room for the ESSENTIAL ones?" I don't know if that helps with your situation, but I sure like to use that quote and take inventory when I feel stretched thin.
Oh, Staci - that's just what I needed to hear! Thank you all!
Good luck with your "bend in the road". ;-) Can't wait to hear what's up next!
you're a fabulous mom and wife. i'm amazed at all the stuff that you do and continue to do!
Hey, D--I think I told you wrong on that quote if you ever wanted to look it up. I think it was Richard G. Scott, not Oaks. They gave simliar talks once, and get it mixed up. ;)
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