Starting Today

I have the world in my arms.  

These little boys are my everything.

I'm learning that "life doesn't have to be perfect to be wonderful". 

Quite recently there have been many moments of uncertainty, moments of fear, moments of tears and moments of pain.  But, they don't hold a candle to the moments of joy, happiness, gratitude, and peace I feel when I look into their eyes, and the eyes of their daddy. Ironically, I feel so safe wrapped up in their little arms, and comforted with Ryan by my side.  I wonder if it's one of those tender mercies, because I feel like I should be the one to wrap them up in my arms. 

Right now I feel like I'm out-growing my shoes and there aren't any new ones to replace the raggedy, holey and bottomed-out old ones.  But I also realize, that I have some shoe polish and my toe-nails are painted, so I can wear them in style. 

Every day it seems like I'm 'starting today' to be a better mom, to be a better wife, to be a better daughter or to be a better sister. Some days those shoes I'm wearing are too comfortable, which means I'm not growing at all.  However, today it seems as if I'm so uncomfortable, that my feet might burst through the laces.  So, maybe I'm growing through of this after all?

I guess when I wake up in the morning and see these happy faces, that I'll start again, 'today'.